Chris B!

You came into my life
you brought me happiness and grace
brought with you a brightness
that lit up the whole place

I wasn't really lookin for you
just fuckin around
but you are like a sirens call
and I can't ignore the sound

It was you
the whole time
it was you
there in my mind
it was you
the whole time
yeah you
that I didn't want to find

and I am frozen
stoned still
when you need to look out
I will be your window sill

This life is hard
but you're not alone
when you need a rest babe
I will be your throne

It was me
the whole time
it was me
there in your mind
it was me
the whole time
yeah me
that you didn't know you'd find

It's been awhile
since I've seen your face
but I can't block out
every second of the day

I wasn't really lookin for this
just messin around
and you're not even here
but you lift me off the ground

It was you
the whole time
it was you
there in my mind
it was you
the whole time
yeah you
that I didn't want to find

it was you
the whole time
it was you
there in my mind
it was you
the whole time
yeah you
that i wasn't trying to find

It's so lonely here without you
but I know / I know
that someone else can fill your shoes
and I don't / I don't
care if or when it happens
I will / be fine / in time

Now my life's been evolving
since I held you last
and I've had my share of breakdowns
but they have come to pass
yes I have loved another
but it was full of shame
and I get angry for the years spent
waiting in vain

but it's lonely here without you
but I know / I know
that someone else can fill your shoes
and I don't / I don't
care if or when it happens
I will / be fine / in time

With my sorrow mostly lifted
through all the work I'd done
I threw back my head and cried out
"I am ready to have fun!"
and two weeks after that day
she came shining through
but I panicked and I told her
I had "shit to do"

Now it's lonely here without you
but I know / I know
that someone else can fill you shoes
and I don't / I don't
care if or when it happens
I will / be fine / in time

I've been alone awhile now
and it hurts / it hurts
but I will not settle for less
than I'm worth / I'm worth
they tell me that's a good sign
that I'm takin life
I figure that's a good sign
that I'm takin life
in stride / this time

You left without warning
with no hint of goodbye
you left that morning
no return or reply
your mind was made up
you'd planned it all out
I remember I stayed up
till the lights had gone out

I never heard what you never said
how could I know you were feeling like that
I was there all along
I thought you were strong but I was wrong

The guilt I carried
led me down a spiral stair
and I questioned your motives
till I just did not care
it was your deal it was your choice
you chose to run away
I wish you'd told me
I would've begged you to stay

how could I hear what you never said
how could I know you were feeling like that
I was here all along
I thought you were strong but I was wrong

I've been so lonely
I've searched for a change
for something outside me
to take away this pain
then you came and told me
not to run away
that look you gave me
it begged me to stay

How could you hear what I never said
how could you know that I was feeling like that
you were here all along
I thought you were gone I was wrong

I've never known
love like
the kind you've shown to me
the kind of love
that compels me
to work toward my dreams

So what happens now
that you're gone
what happens after
this song?
It's not the end thanks to my friends

All of the noise in this place
won't mask the sound of you
and all of the tears on my face
won't make my dreams come true

So what happens now
that you're gone
what happens after this song?
It's not the end thanks to my friends

The dust settled
the smoke cleared
and I've got a grip on fear
I won't look back or ahead
in this moment it's clear

So thank you you woke me
you stirred me up inside
your love exploded
what I tried so hard to hide

And thank you you told me
it was safe to let go
that my friends would catch me
that they're the net below

What happens now?
I'll dream on
I will sing this song
I've learned to bend
thanks to my friends

You got the words wrong when you convex to convex
and I knew from that moment this would be a mess
you weren't supposed to love me but I saw it coming on
you said you'd write me a story then I wrote you that song

and maybe there's no happy ever after
maybe there is and we don't know it yet
sometimes life is a beautiful disaster
and in the end we'll be concave to convex

You said you seem fun and I though "this is perfect"
and I felt when you touched me that it would be so worth it
I knew that I could love you but I didn't think I should
then you spoke to my core and I knew that I would

and maybe there's no happy ever after
maybe there is and we don't know it yet
sometimes life is a beautiful disaster
and in the end we'll be concave to convex

You read me all your stories and I sang you all of mine
but we never heard life creeping up behind
and this song writing, it was part of your disguise
so here's a song you wrote all truth no more lies

This is the shit that fairy tales are made of
and this is the way we make our dreams come true
and it's not all good times and laughter
but in the end we did what we had to do

and maybe there's no happy ever after
maybe there is and we don't know it yet
sometimes life is a beautiful disaster
and in the end we'll be concave to convex